I started working here on 3rd December 2012, exactly 10 months ago.
I chose paeds as this was the best option I could choose from.
I love kids.
I managed to learn from specialist for one week only. Then Dr J left to Putrajaya for subspeciality. V became the HOD. The way she treated me...made me feel like so stupid. Never occurred to my mind that I would be treated that way as an MO. Even when I started my first posting as a houseman, no one ever treated me that way. Yet I went through the days with patience. C was super nice...he sat down and jot down all the basic management for me. I was so touched by his kindness and softness. O was the most junior before I came. Initially I felt that she was hard to approach but later on we became close and even shared a secret. M understood me very well, he knew that I did not ask to be in this department and that I needed time to adjust myself. He always backed me up.
Two weeks later, M left to his favourite department. I felt the lost. I started my call earlier than what Dr J had said. One weekday and three weekend calls in two weeks! My calls turned out to be okay. V started to change her attitude towards me. She started to treat me better. Then, came S, who went for confinement and started Master programme for a while but could not make it. As the most senior, she was the best,the nicest. I learnt a lot from her.
When I was about to prepare mentally for four EOD calls during Chinese new year, H came. She was the saviour. Being very junior and not even finish her attachment, she had to oncall in order to lessen our EODs. V was the happiest person. She gave her weekend call happily to H and let S, a mom with three kids to do more call than her.
V felt that her leadership was challenged. She could not answer when S and O asked her about the call roster. Obviously she practiced an unjust system, how could she answer them? O asked me to voice out along but I remained silent. As a junior, I preferred not to say much. Since then, V started to argue with O. No more sisterhood. S helped me to adjust my call so that I did not have to do too many weekend calls. Thank you S.
Two months later, T came and be the sixth MO. Less oncall for us. I knew him from housemanship. He could be hopeless sometimes, but at other times were helpful. O and V got into a serious argument after a CME. Voice was raised, file was slammed onto the table. Temperature raised. O ended up meeting the director and got PM off. I became the middle person for V and O to communicate. As a leader, V acted childishly. She called O " consultant". O still respect V as a senior and continued asking for her opinion. They hardly talk for a month.
Eventually they started to communicate again. Thanks to O who never give up on her. Unfortunately, before she left, she had an argument with C and T, because she claimed that she was forced to do calls! She complaint to me and she even mentioned her regrets for treating C so well before. She felt that she had been backstabbed. During her farewell party, they did not talk to each other at all!
V left...only five of us remained. Had to do more calls...specialist from HSJ came two monthly, starting July. Dr T was super nice and easy going, but she discharged patients too fast. She appreciates our work and treated us as an MO.
August was the most hectic month. After a one week raya leave,my calls were like forever. That was when I felt that I could not go on anymore...I needed to change environment!
September...Dr Te came. Another adjustment disorder. Initially I felt like being a houseman again, but now it is getting better. She is very much approachable and more careful when discharging patients. L came to rescue. New MO means, a pathway for us to leave. Then, came LL, who was super friendly but after a few days he left to ED and Ta came in.
So, it is confirmed. Today is my last day and my last call. Next week I shall start new in the other department. C is leaving on the 16th. Left O as the most senior, waiting for her HC application. H is currently pregnant and also applied somewhere. Good bye my friend T, keep in touch. All the best to L and Ta. You guys will enjoy working here.
I am so gonna miss here, the atmosphere, the staff and the kids!
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