DENIAL

Allahuakbar, alhamdulillah....
Despite the news on Gaza ceasefire (which was good), here comes another big news. Things that I've awaited for has come. The results for placement are out!!!!

Today before work, I was a bit stressed, thinking that I'll be working in Green Zone.However when I reached the zone, I felt a bit relieved as it wasn't that busy. Ten minutes later, we heard the news about the placement. One by one started calling JKN. My news came later, at 4.20pm. Nah...they are sending me to district hospital.

Frustrated? Yes, as I was really hoping to get a good life in health clinic. Thankful? Yes, as finally I can leave ED HPP !! And I also get to go outside my hometown, live my own life and enjoy the excitement of balik kampung! Worry? Yes, thinking that I'll be working non stop till next Saturday, how am I going to survey for house/ room and prepare for my new life?

I am still in denial, I just couldn't believe it that I'm going there...I have not broken the news to my parents yet. They must be sad in a way that I no longer will be with them at home everyday. And I couldn't help much in taking care of my grandmother anymore.

Okay, tonight I went home late as usual. I was so determined to punch out at sharp 10 so that I could reach home by at least 10.20, unfortunately I was stucked with a patient. I had to discharge her...her blood results came back normal, and her sons kept asking me about her progress.She improved after some medications and 2 pints of normal saline. I really hope that she would be fine, please don't come back to ED with worsening of symptoms...I hope she recovers well. May Allah give back her health.