Separation :(

Already the 4th day of Syawal. Usually at this time, I would have been in deep sleep but not tonight. Just couldn't sleep. Browsed Facebook, felt sleepy, closed eyes, then couldn't sleep again. Weeping. Sad. Too sad.

YB and his wife already left, still fighting with the traffic congestion at highway. Four days with them were just not enough. I wasn't sad at all when sending them off earlier, but now suddenly the feelings appeared out of nowhere.

The expected hero-to-be did not show up too. Waited with hopes on first Syawal, disappointed, then waited patiently on second Syawal, disappointed again. Third Syawal, was told that the plan was cancelled. Fine. Will not be hoping anymore. Sister in law-to-be promised to come on second Syawal, but until now still not showing up. Do not promise if you can't keep it. Everyone has their own matters.Hmmmm.

Third year raya without him. Went missing and uncontactable. Don't you even remember your parents, who brought you up for 30 years? Your siblings, who grew up with you?Don't you feel empty, not shaking hands with your parents and ask forgiveness from them? You still have parents but you ignored them. How about one day your kids ignore you, what would you feel?  We still believe that you will come back. Now or then. We never disown you. Please come back before it is too late.