WAKTU SENSITIF

Waktu-waktu sensitif menjelma lagi.Esok Aidilfitri.Kat Malaysia dah malam raya dah, di sini petang baru nak menjengah,namun debaran dan keterujaan raya langsung tidak terasa, sungguhpun raya jatuh pada hari cuti. Pada waktu seperti ini,ingatan pasti terbang melayang jauh ke Pulau Pinang,mengenangkan ayah dan mak di rumah.Tahun ini mak terpaksa bekerja hingga raya ketiga,kasihan ayah sendirian di rumah.Wish I could be there!


Betapa pada saat ini aku ingin sekali menerbangkan diri,pulang ke rumah untuk berada di sisi ayah dan mak, untuk memberi sokongan kepada abang dan menceriakan hidup YB...Takdir menetapkan bahawa tempatku di sini.Biar apa pun yang bakal terjadi,aku tetap perlu berada di sini.Building the strengh on my own.


Aidilfitri adalah hari meraikan kemenangan setelah sebulan bertarung nafsu di bulan Ramadhan.Mereka yang benar-benar menghayati keindahan Ramadhan pasti akan merasai kemanisan kunjungan Aidilfitri.Semoga segala amal ibadah yang diusahakan sepanjang Ramadhan dapat terus diistiqamahkan...demi menjadi abid rabbani,bukan sekadar abid ramadhani.


Jumlah kematian akibat kemalangan jalan raya di Malaysia agak membimbangkan.Majoriti mangsa adalah umat Islam yang ingin pulang berhari raya.Harapnya kemalangan yang diakibatkan oleh kecuaian, tidak sabar, tergesa-gesa, mengantuk dan sebagainya dapat dielakkan terus...semua pemandu,sila berhati-hati di jalan raya!!! Takut pula apabila memikirkan YB dan isteri yang akan pulang ke JB dan PP.Sesungguhnya ajal dan maut itu telah ditentukan,cuma apabila ia berlaku akibat RTA menjelang lebaran,ia tambah menyedihkan ahli keluarga yang masih hidup.


Semalam,aku hampir saja menjejakkan kaki ke kampung kecil,Cahir, sebutannya"khir".Direct bus dari Clonmel ke Cork berakhir pada 1530,maka jika aku naik bas pada jam 1700 atau 1745,aku perlu tukar bas di Cahir.Walau bagaimanapun,petang semalam,entah macam mana,boleh ada direct bus ke Cork,dengan hanya membawa 3 orang penumpang! Bas tersebut bergerak pada jam 1740.Sampai di rumah beberapa minit sebelum berbuka.Segala kepenatan amat terasa,setelah seminggu bekerja keras di Clonmel.


Dan hari ini adalah hari terakhir puasa Ramadhan.. :(   Dan diarrhoea pulak...pukul 11 perut dah berbunyi-bunyi dengan hebatnya!

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HOME

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I’m fine mummy, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I've gotta come home
Let me go home
I've had my run
Daddy I'm done
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

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Abang,


I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope I am the one you share your life with


If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my brother?


I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope I am the one you share your life with
And I wish that I could be the one you die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay by your side?


'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side


I  don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I